Sometimes saying you’re sorry is messy because the reason you’re apologizing is messy.
Recently I made the mistake of confronting a friend of mine. I say mistake because I handled it in a manner that caused embarrassment, guilt, and ruined what could have been a great afternoon of spending time together. Instead of winning the respect of my friend by taking him aside and sharing my thoughts, feelings, and frustrations in a safe way I opened my mouth and let my words fly free.
If I would have had the patience to wait, calm down, and remind myself that he is a great friend the conversation would have been beneficial and our friendship would have grown stronger.
Scripture, if we allow it, can speak, humble, teach, and strengthen us. Shortly after my vocabulary explosion I was reading through the New Testament and just so happened to run into 1 Peter 5:6-8.
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.(NIV)
I was humbled by God’s word. I was anxious the entire day after that confrontation, but when I cast my anxiety on God and apologized to Him, and my friend, for my actions the stress began to leave.
When we are worshipping God with all of heart, soul, mind, and strength there are times that we will fail, stumble, and fall. If we continually learn to go to His word we can find the strength to go on.
Life can be messy, but every moment we live for God sweeps away some of the dirt.